Hide and seek with God.

Transition

2011-01-15T20:46:00.002-05:00

Its a new year and a new season of life. Transition can be one of the most difficult things to go through. Everything is changing, and you don't know what the other end looks like. This has been my life the last few months. It feels as though a storm came and left everything overturned. Throughout all of this God has stayed faithfully by my side. He is truly faithful.

Looking back over the last five years I have seen all the places where God reminded me of who I am. It seems as though the last five years of words and dreams and following God have led me here. One season ending and the next beginning. Im no longer a boy, and those things have to be put aside. There is way to much to get done to look back and wonder what if. The first word I got that started this season was Jesus calling me his faithful follower. Even though I didnt see that then I look and I can see that it was a declaration of who I truly was, and who I am.

My past failure, current failures, and future failures do not dictate who I am or what is at the root of my heart. I have learned to find my success in the fact that Jesus loves me and I love Him. Nothing more or less could make me any more successful.

I can hardly wait to see what God has in store for me this year. What an adventure this will turn out to be. I have a dog, and a van. Its time to go on faith adventures with God. Its time to bring the kingdom to earth. Show true love. Now is the time.

Rested, Learning, Growing

2008-10-21T01:56:00.004-04:00

I have had a wonderful time in the house of prayer this last week. The first week here I had a lot of trouble sleeping, which affected me in the prayer room because I had so much trouble staying awake. However this last week was different. My sleep was very restful. I was able to stay awake in the prayer room and I had some encounters with God. I am still struggling with the focus of my sets and filling the 2 hour slot, but as the days go by my sets have become more focused. The main theme of my sets over this last week was for the church. We are in a time where we may live to see the coming of Christ, and if not us then definitely the next generation. I feel it is vitally important to seek God and to fast and pray on behalf of the believers that they would wake up to the times and prepare their hearts for what is coming. I have been studying the end times and reading a book called "End Times Simplified" by David Sliker. I would recommend this book to every body, even if you aren't very interested in the end times. It is a real eye opener, and I guarantee that by the end of the book you will be glad you read it. There will be more to come. God bless you all.

Lets Go SHOP.

2008-10-16T01:45:00.002-04:00

It has been a while, a very long while. I am still not very good at blogging, but no worries I will improve. So here is an update as to what is going on in my life. I have decided, under the leading of the Lord, to move to Salem to become full time staff at SHOP (Salem House Of Prayer). I came expecting to be the only one covering the night watch, but to my surprise there were already people on shifts at night, and another full time staff member that is at the house of prayer from midnight to 6a.m. God has been doing some really awesome stuff in the area. I have only been here a week and a half and I can already tell the difference. God knows what He is doing. Just after I got to the house of prayer Eric, who is the other guy on the night watch got so sick that He had to stay home in bed. The whole staff is under a lot of attack. Any body reading this please say a prayer for the staff of the Salem House Of Prayer. So this is the end of my blog. There will be more to come. I am going to try to update it weekly.

Yeah!!! No More Snow!!!

2008-04-08T13:29:00.002-04:00

Today Is a beautiful day here in Maine. Finally after 5 months of 2+ft of snow on the ground it is melting. The tempurature has been in the 50's and the sun is out. People are now walking around in t-shirts, shorts, and even sandals. It is beautiful. The ponds and lakes are thawing out. I have a job, and still don't need a car because the job is within walking distance of where I live. I am loving the weather now, it is perfect hoodie weather, and that is my favorite type of weather. It has been a great month.

Nothing says home like Budweiser

2008-03-12T01:38:00.003-04:00

That's right, Budweiser. I am horrible with directions and the way I can tell if I am close to home is the Budweiser factory that comes just before my street. It was nice to see the factory cause I knew I was just minutes from being in my own room. Connecticut was great. I went to Connecticut with a friend who was moving down there. We all got up at about 1am and left somewhere around 2am. We then drove 4.5ish hours till we got to where his family was moving in. The night before we left all of us only really got about 3 hours of sleep if that. It was a tough day the first day there. We had to unload the moving truck because it had to be back the next morning at 9am.

The house they moved into hadn't been lived in for about a year and the people that lived there previously didn't take that great care of the house. I was constantly sneezing and was struggling to breath also. I had horrible allergy problems while in the house. I also realized while there that I had forgotten my inhaler back in Maine.

I had a great time when I wasn't in the house. I got to see Long Island N.Y. I also got to go to a beach on the east coast for the first time. I saw a building that was built in 1783 and was still in use. I love the history in Connecticut. The weather was awesome and it was nice not having 5 ft. of snow on the ground.

I would have liked to stay a little while longer but due to allergies I had to leave early.

Conneticut

2008-03-03T15:02:00.002-05:00

Here is just a short little note blog. I am going to be in conneticut for a couple of weeks, so if I don't post no worries. Most likely I wont have access to a comp, but as soon as I do I will give updates. I am excited to go and can't wait for what God has in store. May God bless you all and peace be with you.

Walking on Water.

2008-02-28T07:10:00.004-05:00

Over the last several years I have asked God to increase my faith, and I have made known to Him my desire to walk on water. He has been doing just that. The prophetic word for 2008 is that it is a year of new beginnings. This has excited me greatly. I am excited to see what God is going to do throughout this next year. As for me here is where I am.

2008 is a year in which God is teaching me to trust in Him. I am supposed to trust that He will provide for me. I thought that it wasn't God at first, but through confirmation through people that didn't know what God was speaking to me, it was confirmed. Even after being confirmed it took me a while to accept that this is what God was leading me into.

Alright so I got that down and am willing to trust God to provide for me. Well that’s not so bad I am living with my parents. Next thing God reveals to me is that I am going to be leaving the area. God knowing that I would wait for confirmation wasted no time in confirming it to me. I believed that I am supposed to go to a supernatural training center in Abbotsford B.C., but after much more prayer about what to do I believe it has changed.

I will be going to Abbotsford, but maybe sooner than expected. I am now in a waiting period. I am waiting for God to say go. When He says go, I will go even if it happens to be tomorrow. I do not know the day for sure, but I do believe it is sooner than I first thought. I am excited to see what God is going to do. Any body reading this that doesn't mind saying a prayer for me; please pray that God would give me courage, and peace.

My latest season.

2008-02-25T05:56:00.002-05:00

God told me about 3 or 4 months ago that I needed to contend for what I want. I remember exactly where I was. I was sitting on the church roof taking a break from putting on a metal roof. It was so clear, God told me I would have to go 16 rounds. I knew I could make it, the fact that I was sitting on a roof without being afraid was proof of that. Around that same time I got a word that I was to get prayed up for what is coming. I didn't put those two things together until just now. Christmas came and somebody decided to get me an everlast hoodie. I opened the gift took one look and knew that God was reminding me what kind of a season I was in.

The past 3 months has been one of the most difficult, if not the most difficult season of my life. I have had to push through and endure what would have been the point of giving up in the past. I know God has been with me, but there were days and even a couple of weeks where I couldn't feel God. The last week the only way I could think of to describe the last 3 months is Rocky fighting the Russian. I had to keep pushing through no matter what the enemy was telling me, no matter what I was thinking, and no matter what I wanted. I knew God had me here to grow.

I was so spiritually and mentally exhausted that I couldn't even hold on to my peace. I went into my room Sunday and just sat before God and told Him how I was feeling. Suddenly as if a dam had broken I could feel God again. I have spent the whole last day just in His presence getting refreshed and renewed. As an added bonus to being refreshed, today (Monday) is supposed to get up to 42 degrees!!!! God is good.

Looking back on the last few months I can see all the times where when I didn't think I would be able to go on any more God would send someone along to encourage me, and to remind me what kind of a season I was in. I can see the point where I couldn't go any farther and God took me the rest of the way.

I'm not sure what tomorrow may hold, but after this last season I'm not worried. I know God has me in His hands.

Space the final frontier...

2008-02-24T04:25:00.002-05:00

I absolutely love the night sky. Any time I start to get prideful and think that I'm great all God has to do is take me outside at night and have me look up. As I stare into the sky I get overwhelmed by the eternal God, and how big and incomprehensible He is. I then just stare in awe, because I serve a big God, one that is bigger than I could ever imagine. It also serves a second purpose.

Whenever I feel like I am getting beat and that my problems are to big to handle I can just go outside and look up. When the stars are out I just turn out all the outside lights and just stare into space and meditate on how good God is. Guaranteed that within 5 minutes I will forget every problem, every worry, and everything else but God. It works even when the clouds are out, because I know that the clouds may block my view, but no matter how cloudy it gets space is always there and is always bigger. A lot like my problems and God. No matter how big they get, God is always there, and is always bigger.

No, I said celibacy, not celery.

2008-02-20T02:12:00.002-05:00

Now don't get me wrong, I have nothing at all against marriage. It was a desire of mine for a while. Where I am now, and this season, I like the sound of celibacy. I think as long as I have the grace for it I will take it. There is some awesome stuff for people that chose to remain single, and there is awesome stuff for people that chose to get married.

In Matthew 19 the pharisee's ask Jesus about divorce and He explains it to them. After the explanation the disciples asked that if that is the case for a man and woman wouldn't it be better not to marry. Jesus replied with this, "11Jesus replied, "Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. 12For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it."

While I was reading this I had to read over it several times. Something strange had happened in my heart, I knew I could accept it. This was a work of God in my life. I had thought about not pursuing marriage for about 2 years and had not been willing to give up that desire. What I have found now is that giving up the desire to be married has been one of the greatest things I have given to God. After saying in my heart that I am alright being single God showed me this scripter in 1 Corinthians.

In 1 Corinthians 7:32 Paul talks about the unmarried man, and how the man who is unmarried is concerned with the things of the Lord, and how he may please the Lord. In the next verse he says that the married man is concerned with the things of the world and how he may please his wife.

One of the things that I have been pursuing in life is to have a focused abandonment to God. I want God to be my one desire in life. If I get married I will have a split focus in life, God and my wife. At this point I want to give full undivided attention to God. As long as the grace to not burn with desire is on me I will remain single. If God reveals to me that it is His will for me to marry I will marry. Until then I will remain happy and single.

Do you smell gas?

2008-02-17T01:30:00.002-05:00

Believing a false thought about God is like walking waste high in gasoline while holding a candle for light. Eventually you will get burned.

It doesn't make any sense to hold an open flame near gas, but if you don't know any better and aren't willing to learn you will find out the dangers the hard way. I held myself back for so long in life because I wasn't willing to challenge the false mindsets on God that I had. Some of them I knew were bad but wasn't willing to take risk to change them.

They held me back because I wouldn't walk into the fullness of God for fear that God would not come through on His end. I was stuck trying to find out who I was because I wouldn’t believe who God says I am. I wouldn't accept the answers that were plainly before me because that would require me to believe that someone could truly love me without wanting something in return.

I have finally got past those thoughts and am realizing not only just how much God loves me, but all His creation. After believing so many untrue things about God I have been set on a journey of finding out truth about God. About who He says He is and about how great God is.

In Genesis 14 Melchizedek blessed Abraham and the first part of the blessing was "Blessed be Abram of God Most High, Possessor of heaven and earth". When the king of Sodom told Abram that he could take the goods for himself Abram told the king that he had made a vow to the LORD, God Most High, the Possessor of heaven and earth.

Abraham didn't just put the revelation on the shelf. He learned something about God and used it in his daily life. I am excited to find out truths about God. I cannot wait to see how He may reveal Himself. Going past me and getting into who God is has been amazing. Stepping into a belief system that glorifies God and who He is has brought me peace about who I am. God is awesome beyond comprehension.

Pick up your cross

2008-02-15T23:10:00.005-05:00

I have always had a place for God in my heart, but that was a big problem for me. I always had a place for God, but I wasn't willing to give Him my heart. I now realize that my past cannot define my future, and that I must not allow it to. Two things happened to me when I was five. God put a desire in my heart to be a missionary. The second was that I got my first video game system. I know the person that gave it to me didn't know what that would do to me. I had no clue what video games would do to me. It seems so innocent. I was a child what harm could video games really be? What I couldn't see is what they were doing to me spiritually. I became addicted to video games, comfort, and entertainment. While in H.S. I had little to no walk with God. Also while in H.S. I got involved with not the best crowd and I started playing dungeons and dragons. I saw no harm in it, but I couldn't see that it was just desensitizing me to God. While in H.S. I started reading about "white magic", and became interested in psychic powers. It was only by the grace of God that I did not pursue that any more than just looking. I would love to say that I have always been in love with God, but during H.S. I fell for other "lovers". The other lovers were entertainment, comfort, and my flesh. I was spending at least 10 hours a day playing video games, watching movies, or playing card games. Entertainment had become my god and I was a slave to my flesh. I didn't have much of a walk with God at all in H.S. and didn't up until I joined a school at my church. I went to the school through the 2005 - 2006 term. During this time I heard about the House of Prayer, and fell in love with God. It took the next three years for me to learn to give up those other things so that I could put God first. It was like I was playing hide and seek with God. I was hiding from Him up until about the internship at the Salem House of Prayer I joined in sept. 06. It was a 3 month internship and during the time I stopped waiting for God to find me and I started seeking after God. While in the internship I learned about the bride of Christ. I was astonished that I was loved so much. I got major revelation on the love of God during that time. I still wasn't quite ready to give up my fun to put God as first. I had gone through a backslide after the internship and fell into a bad relationship and was engaged to be married. The date was August 2007. God used her great grandmother who had Alzheimer’s to remind me about how much He loves me. My Mom, step dad, and sister flew out from Maine for the wedding. While they were in Oregon they told me that they were alright if I wanted to call off the wedding and that they would buy me a ticket to Maine with them. I called off the wedding and had to break of that relationship. I moved to Maine August 2007. Since I have been here I have gone through an intense season of dying to my flesh and putting God first. I have decided that since they stole so much of my time from God that video games and movies could no longer have any place in my life. As I look back on my life I can see that God was there waiting for me all those years to answer His knocking on my heart. God is good and the very least I can do for my God is giving up all I have, and all I am to seek Him out. I have decided to pick up my cross and follow God, wherever that may lead me. I must have God, and I must tell others of His mighty love for us.

Got to start somewhere.

2008-02-14T13:25:00.002-05:00

So I know that probably nobody will ever read this, but I also know that I must start somewhere... So here it is. I am going to be using this blog to update those people that want to see what is going on in my life. I am also excited to blog so that a year from now I can look through the blogs and see what God has done in my life over the last year. One thing That I know is that I cannot despise the day of small beginnings. That has been a tough one to learn because I want to be out changing the world. I really despised the small beginning up untill God revealed to me that this was my chance to grow in love with Him. I am excited now that I have nothing to do all day but seek God and spend time with Him. I know God has plans for my future, but for right now, I think I will be satisfied with just being with Him.